Who the hell am I? Anyone know? LOL.
I have been trying to figure this out for a very long time. I’m a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister and all of those help to mold me…but without all of that….who am I? Being an empath, being around others and sucking in others energies for so long…I forgot what makes me tick…what makes me, me and finding those things in the world that make me happy. Now don’t get me wrong, my kids are my everything, the make me extremely happy although sometimes being a parent can be challenging. Being a wife can also be very challenging as well. My husband (Scorpio) have been together for 15 years. I love him dearly too but since we are both water signs and emotions can be pretty extreme sometimes, we make it work. I’m not saying my marriage is perfect by any means but we are trying to find a balance through it all. Before I really realized all this empath stuff, I knew that I require a lot of down time to myself. I can not be around noise or people constantly or I will be a cranky, jerky girl. LOL. Before he would take offense to that, if I would disappear and go hang out in the bedroom to recharge. He is finally understanding my needs and honoring what I need. I require downtime/alone time daily to recharge. Hands down. I need this. Before I would get guilted if I did that. Now he honors and respects what I need and I so appreciate my husband allowing me to now do this.
Back to self identity, being an empath, putting others needs as ease and forgetting about my needs for so many years. I’m not sure if you would really label that as an empath or a healer, which I am both. I dabble a bit in palmistry. If you have a bunch of vertical lines under your pinky finger, your dominant hand, chances are you are a healer. That’s not the only sign of being one but just wanted to share that little fun fact. Hey, ya learn something new everyday. LOL. Another sign would be a great need to want to help people, animals, the planet, etc. So here I am, wanting to save everyone but have my own healing to do but that’s me, always putting others before myself. Does it make sense that I dont know what makes me super happy since I have been paying attention to everyone elses needs but mine for so many years? Yes, it totally does. I am working on it. Thank you for letting me share my stories with you. They say journaling is a great way for self expression.
Besides family stuff here are a few things that make me happy:
The beach, pool, bathtub. (This crabby needs her water)
Softball, Basketball, maybe even running LOL
Psychic stuff, astrology, numerology, higher learning, spiritual stuffs.
Stay tuned for more stuff I hope to add as I am finding myself after almost 39 years. What makes you thrive? Thanks for reading. Have a beautiful day! Xo